Finished

My internship is over now so my blog will come to an end…I am not really a blogger (I don’t enjoy it). Thanks to everyone who took the time to read it! I will leave you with one of my favorite memories while I was in South Asia….bye for now!

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Much love, B

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Who you say I am

We just started singing this song at my church, and I love it. Here are the lyrics:

“Who am I that the highest King
Would welcome me?
I was lost but He brought me in
Oh His love for me
Oh His love for me

Who the Son sets free
Oh is free indeed
I’m a child of God
Yes I am
In my Father’s house
There’s a place for me
I’m a child of God
Yes I am

Free at last, He has ransomed me
His grace runs deep
While I was a slave to sin
Jesus died for me
Yes He died for me

I am chosen
Not forsaken
I am who You say I am
You are for me
Not against me
I am who You say I am”

I like this song because I think we often believe lies about who we are. We forget what God says about us and what God has spoken over us. So who does God say we are? The Bible says we are chosen, forgiven, blameless, holy, righteous, redeemed, freed, accepted, complete, beloved, co-heir with Christ, child of God, etc. There are so many more ways that people of God are described in the Bible. These are the things we should believe about ourselves, and we should be confident of who we are in Christ.

From there we should realize that our life is not our own, but that we are alive to bring glory to God. God loves us, but He does not say all of this about us so that we can feel more important or so that we can make ourselves bigger than we really are. We were made in God’s image, but we are not God. God is the center of everything, and our lives should revolve around Him. He is the center, not us. That is a good thing to remember.

Much love, B

Snickers

This picture reminds me of my time in South Asia. I loved my time there, and I cannot wait to go back again. I remember finding this Snickers bar and wondering what this word meant.

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I asked a friend later and Nautanki means dramatic. It is actually fitting, because I am pretty dramatic when I’m hungry. It was cool finding something familiar there but with a word in a different language.

Much love, B

Hindu Temple

Today we visited a Hindu Temple in order to learn more about Hinduism, and it was really interesting. The priest said that they do not use the word Hindu or Hinduism to describe themselves, as it is a name that was assigned by other people. He also said that Hinduism is not a religion, but rather a spiritual practice. He also mentioned that Hinduism is not polytheistic but rather monotheistic because they believe in one Supreme God that takes on many different forms. This was hard for me to believe because there are so many forms that this God takes on. Some of the representations of God are metaphorical and some are literal. Some of them were people that actually lived on earth, but others are more of a concept. Plus there are lesser deities that they pray to, so that makes me wonder is that still the one God? The forms that God can take on can be male or female, or they can be an object. It is all pretty confusing.

The priest performs many rituals in Hinduism. The priest performs one ritual in order to have God come live in the statue. They believe that God is housed in the statues after the ceremony. He also performs rituals to bathe the deities, to feed the deities, and to put the deities to sleep. This was pretty surprising to me. He said that people can come and pray or worship however they want. There is no one way to do it, and there is no one text that they follow. It is more a spiritual way of life than anything else. He also said that they do not believe in sin but rather mistakes. This raised a lot of questions for me because does that mean that if someone murders someone else it is just considered a mistake and nothing more?

Overall it was a very interesting trip, and I learned a lot about Hinduism from visiting the temple.

Much love, B

Food and cooking

After visiting North Africa, the Middle East, and South Asia, my palate expanded. I think this is because while I was there I was required to eat things I would not typically choose to eat. I ate so many different kinds of foods that when I came back I found myself willing to eat more foods. I have always been willing to try foods, but now I find myself actually enjoying more foods. I also am proud of the fact that I have learned to cook more foods. I used to hate cooking a lot, but I don’t find it so bad anymore. I actually enjoy cooking dinner with my boyfriend. I can make tacos, different types of pasta, quiche, meats, vegetables, potatoes, soup, etc. I have learned a lot, and I like that I am able to cook different types of food now. I hope to continue expanding my palate and cooking more. Still not a fan of fish….but maybe one day.

Much love, B

New Job

Last Saturday I started a new job as a “soccer coach” for little children. I put quotes around the soccer coach part because I am working with children from 18 months until 6 years old, so for some of the ages I am not actually teaching anything about soccer. However, I loved my first day! I got to run around and have fun with children. I got to do different activities with them to help develop their fine and gross motor skills. This is the kind of job that I enjoy doing. One where I get to be a teacher, but I also just get to have fun with kids. I am going to enjoy this job, and it is also a great way for me to prepare for helping with a sports camp in South Asia in the fall.

Much love, B

Fresh Start

Every day we have the opportunity to start fresh. Today I am starting new. I was able to feel the weight slowly beginning to lift yesterday, and I feel a lot more myself today. I was reminded of this verse that talks about how God’s compassion for us never fails, and that we can start new with him every morning. I am so glad for that. I might not have all of the pieces put together, but I am confident that God is faithful. He has great compassion for me, and I can be renewed by him daily. I am thankful that I have someone on my side that can do far more than I could ever possibly do on my own.

Lamentations 3:22-23 says, “Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”

Much love, B

In the deep

Today I feel a deep sadness. The type that you feel in your whole body. The type where you might burst into tears at any moment for any reason. Where did this come from? Well it might have to do with the fact that I have been feeling far from my communities lately, far from my family, far from my boyfriend, and far from God. I feel a sense of disconnectedness in each of these areas of my life right now, but the most important one is that I feel a disconnect in my relationship with God. I don’t know why because I am reading His word, worshipping, praying, and in community, but it feels like I’m on the outside right now looking in on all these things instead of experiencing them. I don’t know what the block is, but I am actively praying against it.

Much love, B