Today I feel a deep sadness. The type that you feel in your whole body. The type where you might burst into tears at any moment for any reason. Where did this come from? Well it might have to do with the fact that I have been feeling far from my communities lately, far from my family, far from my boyfriend, and far from God. I feel a sense of disconnectedness in each of these areas of my life right now, but the most important one is that I feel a disconnect in my relationship with God. I don’t know why because I am reading His word, worshipping, praying, and in community, but it feels like I’m on the outside right now looking in on all these things instead of experiencing them. I don’t know what the block is, but I am actively praying against it.
Much love, B